Something that I have been in the process of unlearning and relearning is this idea that I can be whoever I want to be, the idea of one shaping one's own fate/future, given the free will that God has blessed mankind with. I sometimes think that I am unable to become the person I'm meant to or want to be or the person that God has meant for me to be because people perceive me to be a certain way (and being the people pleaser I am, I have to conform to their expectations of me), or because I was brought up in a certain family (being the youngest and always being put down- I have constantly struggled with being assertive and knowing when/ how to interact with other individuals in a way that portrays that I have great self-esteem but am not cocky/egotistical, and I have always had to prove my own worth to others because everyone always perceived me as the youngest/incapable of speaking for herself/taking initiative/doing things on her own, even though when I did try to prove my maturity and adequacy, it was always discouraged ...i don't know...there was never freedom to experiment with all the aspects of growing up- they way one speaks, dresses, carries oneself, interacts with older and younger people, etc )
ANYWAY
I guess this relates to the movie Wreck it Ralph because Ralph is this video game character that is designed to be the "bad guy" but feels as though his character/ identity
don't know where i was going with this
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